Finding Solace

Lately I've been feeling down and needing to find solace. Somewhere i can lose myself and get all those negative feelings out. Writing and music has always been a source for me. It's where I can express my feelings no-holds-barred. There's nothing like putting pen to paper, or  most of the time fingers to keys, and getting things out of your head in a written rant. Whether it makes sense or not doesn't matter. I'm not even sure if what I'm writing out right now is making sense. But again who cares? It doesn't matter. What matters is getting all those things that are bothering you off your chest in some way. And if not in writing another fantastic way is picking out the best song that reflects your current mood and just singing your heart out along to it. I can't begin to tell you how many songs have been helpful to me.  Music has always been my main source of solace but suddenly writing has begun to fill that role as well.

I've looked back to previous posts and found that most of the things I've written have been sad. Thinking back to when I wrote those things I found myself less burdened. It's a great feeling getting rid of that weight on your mind. I've even gotten back into writing my poetry. I used to write those all the time and never felt as freeing as  I do now. I think it also helps with perspective.Maybe looking back at past things I've written will help me feel better in some way. Like it I feel like it's a bad day, I can look back and realize that it's not as bad as it was that last time. There's just so many ways it helps. I make it a point to have pen and paper near me at all times. You never know when those feelings will attack.

As for music, I have a specific playlist that I have created for my moods. I have one for when I feel my saddest and then I had one for when I was angry. There is something so therapeutic about singing out your feelings at the top of your lungs. Sometimes you just really need to scream out your emotions and music helps with that. It definitely does for me. I'm a lover of music ad never go anywhere without my iPod. Most of the times I'm so emotional my brain just can't form the words I want to express but I can find a song that easily does. I can tell you now that Kelly Clarkson's album My December is a prime example of that.

Music and writing is my solace.