I feel like I'm on the outside looking in
Everyone smiling while all I do is pretend
For everyone else it seems life keeps moving
For me, It's like I'm standing still
Everyone I see making big milestones
While I struggle with life being a bitter pill
Sometimes I feel included, like I really belong
It doesn't last, it's mostly fleeting
Next thing I know that goodness is gone
Seeing everyone living a life I want to be living
Hurts me more than I could possibly imagine
I'm on the outside looking in.
Like a stranger, envious of those she knows
I smile burying the hurt within
They'll never know how deep the hurt goes
I'm on the outside looking in
And sadly I don't see that changing
(written by me 11/21/16)
