Today I found Myself Needing To Talk... So I Made a Video

I see it's been awhile. Lately, I like to use this little blog as my escape when I get really down. And today just happens to be one of those days. Lots of things have happened in the last few months. It has been a roller coaster of emotions with lots of good but equally lots of bad. I have to focus on the good or I'll be drowning in the tears. I turned 30 this year and honestly nothing has really changed for me. I'm still stuck in that shitty rut and I have no one to blame but myself. So I need to vent.

This time around I decided to put my thoughts to video. As much as writing helps I felt like talking this time around. I didn't have anyone I felt I wanted to talk to so I talk to the camera on my iPad. It was therapeutic. It runs pretty long but let me assure I probably could have talked for hours so 9 1/2 minutes was pretty short. As I always say I'm not asking for pity I just have to get my feelings out somehow. I choose to share it because I just want people who know me to understand why I act the way I do most times. I even address them towards the end. So if you watch, great. If you don't, whatever.