Poetry Corner: Sinking Into The Blackness

I’m trapped in this blackness with no way out

As hard as I try to fight it I can’t help but sink in

I want to be free but I don’t know how

I fight and fight but I never seem to win

I don’t know how to break from these chains that tie me here

I’m to the point where all I want to do is give up

I’m stuck in this blackness where nothing gets clear

I’m so tired of everything and I’ve had enough

I’m tired of the false happiness; I’m tired of the lies

I thought I was over it, I thought I was in control

I’m sinking in the despair, tears falling from my eyes

With the types of people around me, I’ll never be whole

Every day I face hypocrites who try to play me for a fool

Maybe I am one and I just don’t know I am

Playing nice to my face and turn around and just be cruel

I just really wish I had the strength to take a stand

I’m falling in this blackness with no sign of any light

I really don’t know how long I’ll last

Even with the little help I have, I still can’t win the fight

I want to go forward and leave this pain in the past

I truly thought that I was going on and progressing

I thought that I was finally free

But now I see that I’m really just regressing

I’m losing sight of me

I’m sinking deeper and deeper with no escape

I think the blackness has finally won

There’s nothing more my heart and mind can take

Will it matter at all if I’m gone?

(Written by me on 01/06/09)